New Day
Happy New Year! Now is the time to begin again, start fresh, and all that jazz; so, what better time than now to introduce my song, New Day? New Day is a popular song with my rockin' crowd. The music was arranged fabulously by Michael Seifert, but I also have to give big props to my guitarist, Dave Shaw. He's a pretty talented guy, he's fantastic in the studio, and he came up with some great guitar ideas for this song. I like my team! :)
Back to the new year...
I bounce through life thinking and writing about having a fresh perspective, leaving negativity behind, and focusing on a vibrant future, A LOT. If you could glance through my pages and files of lyrics, you would find a lot of self reflection turned into forward thinking. As part of my wheelhouse it would seem, I explored an aspect of my personality while playing with the theme from a book I read. The book, chosen by my awesome book club, "Before I Go to Sleep," by S.J. Watson, tells the story of a woman who wakes up everyday with a fresh dose of amnesia. Goodreads, one of my favorite apps, introduces the book like this:
"As I sleep, my mind will erase everything I did today. I will wake up tomorrow as I did this morning. Thinking I'm still a child, thinking I have a whole lifetime of choice ahead of me...
Memories define us. So what if you lost yours every time you went to sleep? Your name, your identity, your past, even the people you love--all forgotten overnight. And the one person you trust may only be telling you half the story.
Welcome to Christine's life."
In New Day, I’ve mashed the thought of having REAL daily onset amnesia, with the forgive and forget doctrine that I try to follow. Similar right? Except that one is a medical condition and one is a choice, and I’d rather not choose to forget ALL of my memories; AND I’d like to continue to create new memories, but I’m sure you see my point. :)
In my story, I find that negative personalities and ideas, stemming from myself and others, crop up into my space. I internalize the bad during the day, and I try to spit it from my brain every night. “I’ll wake up and I won’t even know this.” The negativity sometimes holds onto me tighter than other times, it remains with me through the night, and consequently, it wakes up with me. This makes for a difficult morning, and if you know me, mornings are difficult regardless. Over time the badness can build up, and does, and then I find a way to sing or write it out. “I’ll wake up and won’t even know you, anyway. I’ll awake as before and won’t know you, anymore.” Then inevitably, the cycle repeats.
I think that most people can relate to this; you can only take so much of anything before it becomes overwhelming and all encompassing. In the age of social media and instant connection, frustration happens faster, negativity is everywhere, and self worth for some, seems to be based on the attention received from a status, photo, or video. This can lead to self doubt, berating oneself, and feeling insignificant. Everyone deserves a sparkly and fresh new day. We all have to find our way of releasing the heaviness. I showed you mine...
New Day by Michelle Romary
it doesn’t matter what’s important to me
only that you are happy
and the world in your sight is right, anyway
impress me with your vanity
you can’t mask what you don’t see
your feelings are worth more than mine, anyway
go ahead and go to sleep angry
rest your head 'cause you’re tired of me
i’ll wake up and i won't even know this, anyway
your quips are just nonsense
an embarrassing self defense
keep hiding behind your big words, anyway
it’s fine i’ll take 2nd place
in your race to your escape
i’ll finish behind your pretenses, anyway
go ahead and go to sleep angry
rest your head 'cause you’re tired of me
i’ll wake up and i won't even know this, anyway
that story sounds very familiar
it must be all about me
let’s continue to fight over who knows what, all day, everyday
go ahead and go to sleep angry
rest your head 'cause you’re tired of me
i’ll wake up and i won't even know this, anyway
i’m better when i am alone
no one to distance themselves from me
no one to own
and i’ll wake up and won't even know you, anyway
i’ll awake as before and won’t know you, anymore
i'll awake and i won't even know this, anyway